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The actual madness of 
attraction

It’s in the paradoxical patterns

It’s in the prime meridian

It’s in the sanzen of the similes

It’s in the analog of the latency

It’s in the language of static

The parallel of passion is when

The amount I loved you, then

Is equivalent

To the amount I loathe you, now

(and my God, how I loved you)

There is no middle ground

No returning

No amnesty for avarice

No curtain obscuring the tragedy

Of us

It’s when

The pervasive spaces

Become condemned

It’s when

The forevers rival

The never agains

a. duncan, 2020

 

Lyrics:
You don’t need a reason
For I know that what I’ve done is wrong
No one there to argue
About the way that our moment’s gone

Yeah, it’s the same
Right or wrong
Yeah, it’s the same thing
Right or wrong

These are my suspicions
And I’ll never know how this was a lost cause
And both sides are even
They are even and alone

Yeah, it’s the same
Right or wrong
Yeah, it’s the same thing

Right or wrong

 


Video featured track: ‘Bit of Fluff’ by Max Richter


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Amor et melle et felle est fecundissimus || Love is rich with both honey and venom

14 thoughts on “=

  1. Must loathing so often follow love?
    Regretfully,
    it too often does.
    Still,
    we must leap
    and learn
    hard lessons
    so we may find
    balance,
    and a companion
    with which to tread
    a parallel path,
    hand in hand,
    and leave behind
    the cinders of broken trust.

    There’s a lot of story in the words of your poem. It has a tragic beauty.

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    1. What an insightful comment, Tim. Absolutely! The pendulum between love/hate seems to swing both ways with equivalent centrifugal force. Life is filled with instances of emotional paradox ‘round every turn. It is about finding that balance in the scales.

      I want to thank you sincerely for taking the time to not only read this piece – but to examine it – beyond a mere collection of words. Tragic beauty is exactly how I would define the soul of this poem. I’m so appreciative for your poignant thoughts on this! 🖤

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  2. You caught me with the first few lines and owned me with “and my God, how I loved you”.
    That line got my full attention and impressed upon me the full depth of what you were saying. It was raw, a verbal sledgehammer, and I smiled at the satisfaction I imagined one would feel delivering that blow to a deserving recipient. I also smiled because I was glad I wasn’t the target!
    You wrote with great power and feeling, I responded to your call.
    Thank you, I’m honored by your compliments.

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    1. It’s interesting you picked up on the immense sadness in that “God, how I loved you” line. When writing this, that was sort of the pinnacle of the feeling behind the poem itself. As if to say, I loved you so much and now I have no choice but to hate you, equally. There was a lot of powerful sentiments woven into these words and I am so honored that you experienced them with me. ❤

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  3. The parallel of passion is when
    The amount I loved you, then
    Is equivalent
    To the amount I loathe you, now
    (and my God, how I loved you)
    There is no middle ground
    ….
    It’s when
    The forevers rival
    The never agains

    April. How did I miss you posting this, and what a treat to find it. Your ability to traverse these two diametrically opposed forces…. love and loathing… is exquisite. The emotion on both sides equally intense. The fall out of our hearts when we are hurt by someone we loved. I have a lot of favourites of yours. This is one of them. Each line is perfection.

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    1. I don’t mind at all Rachel. Because I get to bask in your delightful presence (in real time – that is to say -18 hours in the future time) sometimes outside of wordpress. It means so much to me to receive your feedback here. I always get dizzy and sink into my chair with heart eyes when you make a point to comment that you’ve enjoyed something I’ve created. (Seriously how lucky am I?) … but this one we spoke about in the other realm so I didn’t even notice you were delayed in commenting. I just sort of bask in you and forget everything else.

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